.I'm so tired.
.I don't have anything to distract me to today. Not a single motivation to invent something, an art block.
.The music box and the library is still there. He's reading something away from the sunlight.
.It's not spinning.
.How do I tell him this hatred?
.Fuck, no. I shouldn't bring that up first. Just slow and careful...
.HEY, XEVEN!! feeling bored? youre not reading under the sunlight, youre gonna have headaches from that
.Can you shut up for a moment? Second of all, we're not humans and we don't have a physical human body to feel the pain.
.nahhh i get that were not humans and were just sentient souls sending signals to each other lmao
.besides what are you even reading anyways??? fictional stuff???
.No, I'm actually proofreading my own works. I'm not gonna show it to you yet. It's very delicate.
.you write now? cool
.can i see it please please please please please please please please
.no
.>:(
.Fuck off, please.
.PLEASE? THATS NEW
.Stop, I'm being nice.
.ppfffttahhaa yeah right. There's something else I have in my mind right now.
.I want to talk to you.
.About... how I act and stuff.
.Things are getting serious, I'll hear you out.
.The thing is, I don't know why I'm like this. Sometimes I feel like a child and how it's a reason but most of the time it's... something I don't know.
.I've always wanted to be silly but a part of my mind would say that I'm not like that. So here's a question,
.what's your first impression about me? Is my child-like personality the real me in your perspective? Do you know anything about me?
.You were really annoying honestly. Second, I'm still thinking about it. Third, I don't know anything about your past.
.But speaking of the past...
.Do you still remember it?
.i do but uh i dont wanna talk about it right now.
.my past life is kinda heavy idk man like long story and my memory is vivid enough to remember
.I'm not forcing you.
.I could tell you about mine.
.Hey, dont ignore me.
.Sorry. I was thinking where I should start.
.Hey, kiddo, listen to me.
.I'm coming back home, I ran away from my found family as well. You understand deeply about my experiences I told you, right?"
.yeah- uhm yeah
.maybe thats how he felt when he disappeared. but i dont know what to do
.It may take time but you have to move on. He might never return back but it's okay, you can let go. Holding that chain harder will only you worse.
.and letting go of that chain will give you much more freedom.
.Have you decided your decision yet? I don't mind if you don't want to take my advices.
.im.. still gonna try to find him.
. ...Ah.
.theres just so many things unanswered why and how he ran away in space
.well to the point of disconnecting the link by travelling too far from this location.
.Travelling far? You want to find him with your own?
.no actually
.to think of it, its not realistic to suddenly find him through space. who knows your 'home' is way far on direction and you just suddenly stumbled upon me right??
.unanswered questions, finding him, those are the issues im currently facing right now
.who invented the signals? or whatever its called
.The signals? A Dwarf named Ivory. A long time ago, why?
.not asking the rest of that information but like
.how it was created. do u know anything
.No, Stars can't create in here. You're a Dwarf and I'm not, I can't see the progress unless you explicitly tell me everything.
.wellll fuck
.just a way to find out, im gonna try it from scratch
.ass ass fuck shpsseass ASS oh my god im feeling a little motivated now
. ...?
.Come here for a second.
.You promised.
.I muttered that word like I have a voice, but I don't. You promised.
.You promised you won't leave me again. Why did you go such lengths to
. ..I can ramble about this for an hour straight by myself in space. Why does it matter if it's all kept inside my mind? I don't even care if anyone hears me at this point. They will never find me again anyway. Nothing matters.
.I thought we would finally meet again, 9_0S
.However, you disappeared again and perhaps restarted your life here again. Are you him anyways? Are you putting up a disguise?
.No, that doesn't support my theory either. There are many dwarfs and stars that look like you and NVB. I hate it here.
.I really hate it here.
.Coldness in this area brushes my limbs while I float in this space like it's nothing. Time passes so slow, it's freezing.
.Why would you go such lengths to leave me behind? You promised you'll stay beside me. Are you really dying or are you faking it? Are you just an illusion I've made up of my mind?
.The more I think about it, the more hatred for you I feel. I should've ignored your signals when we first met. I should've ignored everything.
.None of this would've happened if I didn't have my first ever friend in this space.
.Why are you saying that? Is this right?
.Is it right?
.Is this right to hate on your own friends who made you happy? The hammers that break your emotionless wall, the ones who gave you a new perspective and philosophy for your life?
.Think about it, realise it, you became one of them.
.What?
I left them?
.Now your friend will feel the same hatred again. History may repeat but the pocket watch of yours always moves forward.
.You're going on a loop. You're going in circles.
.Why are you doing this?
.xeven?
.sneaky lil mfer
.come out where the fuck ever u areee
.HA!
. ..
.not here.
.not here either
.xevenn where are uu :((
.xevennnn :((((((((
.i miss u so much :((( come out pleaaaaaaas
.come outttttt
.ive been searching for a long time
.just
so long
.xeven, are u there?
.im actually worried now, please
. ..?
.wait
.i turned off the simulation for a moment while i was resting
.and when i woke up, he was gone
right?
.im such a fuckin idiot man
.xeven are u there?
.please answer
.i love u too please
.shit
.i should check whoevers nearby, pretty sure i can get their coordinat
es..
.huh?
.youre fucking kidding
.god
.youre KIDDING
.i cant even locate his exact coordinates as well
.how the hell did he just vanish man
.fucking abracadabra?
. ...
.abracadabra
.yup no that doesnt work
.god
.i feel like ive done somethin wrong
.something terrible
. ..
.it reminds me
.something i despise the most
.god i sounded like an idiot back then
.quality, thats what im lacking
.i couldnt even fuckin prioritize a life of a living over a thing that is just temporary
.and then it happened
.cuz of shit
.cuz of how i didnt pay attention to them
.it reminds me again,
im a horrible person in general
.i just wanna do whats for the best
.i promised i changed
.i promised
.i promised
.i promised
.it was a long time ago, i promised
.i promise i changed, please
.why am i still horrible after these years